My name is Amber and for most of my life I've been trying to run away from myself and to escape reality. This lead me down a dark path of addiction, abuse, depression, destruction, loss, isolation, despair, etc. The false beliefs that became so deeply ingrained in me convinced me that I wasn't worthy of life, happiness, or love. The trauma I'd experienced taught me that everyone was a threat and that no one - even myself, could be trusted.
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������°���¯���¿���½���¯���¿���½���¯���¿���½ The past few years have been devoted to learning, healing, and forgiving. My innate spirituality has begun to once more flourish and by educating myself on all kinds of healing and recovery methods, I've discovered that I am not just a dramatic, overly sensitive Gemini as my parents always told me ... I'm an empath or at the very least HSP. I feel that I have other gifts as well. So while I've come a long way, I'm still living with reprecussions from my past, some of which have been debilitating for me. I'm 27 with little work experience because I was either in a state of complete dysfunction or my family would discourage me from working so I could focus on healing. My family loves me but through their own dysfunction have severely disabled me from any sense of Independence, Self confidence, etc and though I love them very much I am living in an environment that prevents me from being able to thrive. As I am not working and have no money saved up and never finished anything I started... I don't have the means to move out and get a place of my own.
Through my research on spirituality, healing, recovery, etc I have come across a career path I did not know existed. Discovering the many spiritual entrepreneurs out there has inspired me to develop my skills, attend whatever courses or classes I need, and start working to create my own business in that field.
Anyway. For the simple info: I'm a 27 yr old gemini female born and raised in Austin Tx. My 10 year old Shiz Tzu Cody is my best friend and has taught me how to love unconditionally once more and gifted me with such hope. I struggle with depression and anxiety and care too much about what others think of me. I'm taking steps to clear some of the wreckage from my past. Ultimately my goal is to become as healthy, knowledgeable, balanced, confident (etc) as I can within a reasonable amount of time so I can help and heal others. I can't believe that Source/God/Universe/etc would allow me to go through all of the devestating pain, loss, abuse, trauma, etc just for the hell of it. I believe I went through what I have in order to help others. I may not know in what capacity that will be yet but I do know that healing myself and others is a huge part of my life purpose this go around.